Fly Away

I know Im stupid. I know Im crazy. I know Im dreaming. All I wanted is just him. This yearning is seriously taking a toll outta me. How can i be so crazy about this person where i have nv really known him, nv had a proper conversation with him, nv touched him? Why am i so crazy for him that im willing to let go every single bit of reality for him? Im just crazy. This is just an infatuation. An infatuation that has been going on for 5 years.

wanna fly at`
11:05 AM

im just stupid lar go post those things on the blog. yar. youre right my attitude sux. just leave me to die. i don wanna continue this. i wanna fly away. teleport. now. without me, this world will be a better place i guess.

wanna fly at`
7:39 AM

omg. i actually had a crush on my classmate. wth. i liked him because at first cause i thought he liked me. stupidly. i liked him to. ok its more like a crush but this is one of those serious crush.
what can be worst than having a crush on your classmate. you are afraid to tell him because you dun want to lose him as a friend, then you see him always so close to other girls and having fun with them but you are just too shy to join them.
out of nowhere, his image would just appear in my head. this is driving me mad! my eyecandy. in the first place where i knew he is going to be my classmate, because he is the popular type, i just wanna know why is he popular. then i realise he isnt as gd lookng as i thought he would be. but i realise that what actually attracts others is his singing and personality. though he seems like a miser.
I cant tell him, cause im not good enough for him! but i wanna tell him at least when he says no i will give up. but now just by looking at him and hearing his voice makes me happy and sad at the same time. omg.

wanna fly at`
7:37 AM

I cant take this anymore.
Its quite true that everyone will die someday.
Its just how you will die thats all.
A goodlooking,rich,intelligent,kind person will have th same ending as someone that is totally different.
So whats the point of suffering so much when you can just restart everything all over again?!
Then you can live the way you wnt and you will not be able to remember what's the suffering that you had.

ok. this is getting scary.

wanna fly at`
10:34 PM

i think im really like him le
he drives me mad
really
i felt the connection

wanna fly at`
5:19 AM

depressed.
Im like insignificant again.
I wish i can locked myself in my room forever n ever and never get out.
is like theres no difference
the outside world to me now is all so mo sheng
didnt even think that i belonged here anymore.
what can i say.

she just said due to some things the friendship somewhat hd been broken and can never be turned back again.
she said she is happier with them so i let her make her own choice
so.. she chose them
its awkard to see her
i dunno.
is like seeing her is im distrbting her life or something
im like a stone blocking her from her bright future so i had to be moved away so she can attained that.

so.. thins friendship seems soo weak.
but looking back.
we were so happy with all the weird stuff we do.
but the world had changed even the person i trust the most thinking that she will never abandon me.
but she did it

i felt that im lost once again since that time when i first entered this school
now i had to avoid her but i hate doing this and its wrong although we are no longer bestest best friend anymore but still we are friends right.

and i think she hates it when im around.
she just says bye.
she once told me not to run away from her but now.... she is the one telling me to go away.

Goodbye my goldfish bud.
May you find your own happiness bah.
But still i will compete with you.
goodbye our goldfish friendship.
forgetfulness.......
evironmentalfriendlycampaign........
angel&thepianogirl.............
zhuanshutianshi..................

wanna fly at`
12:52 AM

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wanna fly at`
2:29 PM